{"id":1933,"date":"2020-08-10T05:21:39","date_gmt":"2020-08-10T05:21:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.chanmeditation.ca\/?p=1933"},"modified":"2020-08-10T05:26:33","modified_gmt":"2020-08-10T05:26:33","slug":"online-1-day-retreat-led-by-rebecca-li","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/chanmeditation.ca\/index.php\/2020\/08\/10\/online-1-day-retreat-led-by-rebecca-li\/","title":{"rendered":"Online 1-day Retreat led by Rebecca Li"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<div class=\"foogallery foogallery-container foogallery-masonry foogallery-lightbox-foobox fg-center fg-masonry fg-light fg-loading-default fg-loaded-fade-in fg-caption-hover fg-hover-fade fg-hover-plus fg-ready fg-col3\" id=\"foogallery-gallery-1922\" data-foogallery=\"{&quot;item&quot;:{&quot;showCaptionTitle&quot;:true,&quot;showCaptionDescription&quot;:true},&quot;lazy&quot;:true}\" >\r\n\t\t<div class=\"fg-column-width\"><\/div>\r\n\t<div class=\"fg-gutter-width\"><\/div>\r\n\t\t<div class=\"fg-item fg-type-image fg-idle\"><figure class=\"fg-item-inner\"><a href=\"https:\/\/chanmeditation.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/08\/IMG_20200802_162132-scaled.jpg\" data-caption-title=\"IMG_20200802_162132\" data-attachment-id=\"1925\" data-type=\"image\" class=\"fg-thumb\"><span class=\"fg-image-wrap\"><img decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"113\" class=\"skip-lazy fg-image\" data-src-fg=\"https:\/\/chanmeditation.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/cache\/2020\/08\/IMG_20200802_162132-scaled\/824546846.jpg\" src=\"data:image\/svg+xml,%3Csvg%20xmlns%3D%22http%3A%2F%2Fwww.w3.org%2F2000%2Fsvg%22%20width%3D%22150%22%20height%3D%22113%22%20viewBox%3D%220%200%20150%20113%22%3E%3C%2Fsvg%3E\" loading=\"eager\"><\/span><span class=\"fg-image-overlay\"><\/span><\/a><figcaption class=\"fg-caption\"><div class=\"fg-caption-inner\"><div class=\"fg-caption-title\">IMG_20200802_162132<\/div><\/div><\/figcaption><\/figure><div class=\"fg-loader\"><\/div><\/div><div class=\"fg-item fg-type-image fg-idle\"><figure class=\"fg-item-inner\"><a href=\"https:\/\/chanmeditation.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/08\/DDM-Retreat-20200802.png\" data-caption-title=\"DDM Retreat 20200802\" data-attachment-id=\"1923\" data-type=\"image\" class=\"fg-thumb\"><span class=\"fg-image-wrap\"><img decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"84\" class=\"skip-lazy fg-image\" data-src-fg=\"https:\/\/chanmeditation.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/cache\/2020\/08\/DDM-Retreat-20200802\/1208248978.png\" src=\"data:image\/svg+xml,%3Csvg%20xmlns%3D%22http%3A%2F%2Fwww.w3.org%2F2000%2Fsvg%22%20width%3D%22150%22%20height%3D%2284%22%20viewBox%3D%220%200%20150%2084%22%3E%3C%2Fsvg%3E\" loading=\"eager\"><\/span><span class=\"fg-image-overlay\"><\/span><\/a><figcaption class=\"fg-caption\"><div class=\"fg-caption-inner\"><div class=\"fg-caption-title\">DDM Retreat 20200802<\/div><\/div><\/figcaption><\/figure><div class=\"fg-loader\"><\/div><\/div><div class=\"fg-item fg-type-image fg-idle\"><figure class=\"fg-item-inner\"><a href=\"https:\/\/chanmeditation.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/08\/IMG_20200802_155938-scaled.jpg\" data-caption-title=\"IMG_20200802_155938\" data-attachment-id=\"1924\" data-type=\"image\" class=\"fg-thumb\"><span class=\"fg-image-wrap\"><img decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"113\" class=\"skip-lazy fg-image\" data-src-fg=\"https:\/\/chanmeditation.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/cache\/2020\/08\/IMG_20200802_155938-scaled\/2787304387.jpg\" src=\"data:image\/svg+xml,%3Csvg%20xmlns%3D%22http%3A%2F%2Fwww.w3.org%2F2000%2Fsvg%22%20width%3D%22150%22%20height%3D%22113%22%20viewBox%3D%220%200%20150%20113%22%3E%3C%2Fsvg%3E\" loading=\"eager\"><\/span><span class=\"fg-image-overlay\"><\/span><\/a><figcaption class=\"fg-caption\"><div class=\"fg-caption-inner\"><div class=\"fg-caption-title\">IMG_20200802_155938<\/div><\/div><\/figcaption><\/figure><div class=\"fg-loader\"><\/div><\/div><\/div>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>I enjoyed the retreat very much. Heart felt sincere gratitude to the teacher and all participants.<\/p>\n<p><br \/>I learned to accept all my emotions, including negative ones like jealousy and anger. I fight myself so hard all the time. It feels like I have a split personality. Sometimes I feel upset, jealous and angry, but I thought I should not. I feel bad for having these negative emotions. I do not give myself permission to be human. I always think that I should be better, calmer, more loving and forgiving. I should know better. I am learning to accept who I am and be OK with how I feel. It takes strength to say this is who I am with all my faults and emotions. Not to judge myself. Thanks very much to Rebecca for the interview.<\/p>\n<p><br \/>I am learning to say Hi to the parts of myself, that I ignored for so long, please come in to my heart, here I have space for you. It is OK, however you feel, I am with you, not to leave that part of self outside in the cold, not to face it.<\/p>\n<p><br \/>All the trees in the woods have different shapes. However bent, crooked, no tree is imperfect; they are all perfect just the way they are. So am I and everybody else, because we all have different causes and conditions. No one is better or worse than the other. I am learning to accept and be happy with myself and others without judging and faultfinding. Trust it is all good.\u00a0 Life gives me what I need.<\/p>\n<p><br \/>Written by Wendy Zhang 2020.8.4<br \/>Photo: Vancouver Chan Meditation Centre<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":6,"featured_media":1924,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1933","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-recent-posts"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/chanmeditation.ca\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1933","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/chanmeditation.ca\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/chanmeditation.ca\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chanmeditation.ca\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/6"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chanmeditation.ca\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1933"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/chanmeditation.ca\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1933\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1935,"href":"https:\/\/chanmeditation.ca\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1933\/revisions\/1935"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chanmeditation.ca\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1924"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/chanmeditation.ca\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1933"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chanmeditation.ca\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1933"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chanmeditation.ca\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1933"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}